What even

I may or may not be too depressed to sleep.

:|

I can’t wait to never sleep today.

And I’ve been watching FtM Transition videos for the past hour and a half..

And crying.

And holy shit, I never thought I could get this emotional.

I..holy shit. They’re so happy.

You guys, one day I want to be this happy.

Like, holy shit. The stuff they go through, but it’s all worth it in the end.

I want that, all of that.

I want to be this happy.

I want to be me.

Fuck, you guys.

Why do I do this to myself so early in the morning?

Things I want to be doing:
-smoking the weed I bought last week.
-watching the ringer.
-having sex.

Things my girlfriend wants to be doing:
-watching my neighbor totoro
-cuddling
-sleeping

Things we are doing:
-watching my neighbor totoro
-cuddling
-sleeping

:|